Depression.

For those who struggle with depression, their problems grab them by the throat and suffocate them until they have headaches that ring like thunder, and they're so lost that they lose the will to speak in fear of saying the wrong thing. Fear grips their mind and sadness grips their heart, until they dont control their emotions, but instead are controlled by them, and their result is being forced to live their bleak, dreary, and endless nightmare to the point of mental desperation, where suicide becomes the only alternative.

Others think its temporary. That its only mental. Especially Christians. "What you need is to find God. You have to accept him into your life and you'll (MAGICALLY?) get better." That's BS. Depression isn't a hallucination, its an illness.

If one more stupid idiot person tells me its my fault for feeling like this, I will punch them in their ••••ing face.

Just try to understand, even if your small minded brains can't. But DONT say its my fault.